I’m sitting here trying to fit my heart through this pen all of a sudden I’m feeling warmth running down my hand my heart’s spilling. The lines are starting to fill in, the words just keep coming I’m writing as fast as I can. The pages grow and the next thing I know that happens, I’m starting to flow like the water in my eyes but I grin I’m not finished. My vida’s story’s yet to begin, I’m barely seconds from telling you where I’ve really been. My thoughts stranger than ever, don’t even think that they’re sins, and man screw Seattle weather it’s like I’m in a prison. Waking up from my bed on my floor. Getting up my back hurts worse than before. Wishing there was sun but it’s raining like forever trying not to think about it but it’s hard to ignore. Looking outside from my balcony door. Wanna go somewhere but I ain’t got a car. Battling depression and I seem to keep stressing I don’t have the energy to keep walking in the storm. But I have my best friends who always keep me in check, always make me smile every chance that they get. So if you come for me they’ll put you dogs down like a vet, and when we rap we kill because we’re filthy like that.
I’m being held hostage by the love for my mom I can’t go nowhere far she’s sick she might die tomorrow so I take care of her. Plus I’m careful not trying to jinx it so I keep saying she’ll leave but she’ll come back on the weekends or should I visit her. Knowing that I’ll never come back but I’m not thinking of that I couldn’t care less matter of fact. But on the other hand I got so many plans and dreams which is worth nothing if I ain’t got no one to share them with me. I have fam I have friends but she’s at the top of the chart, we’re like Siamese Twins no one can pull us apart, but if she dies she gonna take me with her in that case. But I hope and I pray that day I will not face until I’m grown. I don’t wanna separate her from me my brothers grew up with her that be some bull if she leaves. Traumatized to the point where I can’t take loud noises it just stuns me the sound runs through my ears like poison sends a shock to my brain I’m temporarily paralyzed. Emotional inside I’m sitting here with wide eyes I’m like a glass cage with a tornado inside I wanna laugh I wanna scream maybe collapse and just cry instead I pick up a pen and I just write down rhymes.